I Cried Yesterday
Posted in Daily Thoughts on 11/25/2009 12:25 am by dianeYes I cried.
I was digiscrapping last night with the photos of Huey. Because I need to avail the $5.99 photobook from artscow which will expire the next day. So I am rushing a few pages as my previously made scrapbook layouts are only 17 pages. The photobook requires a 20 page layout. I put on my DVDs full of pictures of huey on my laptop and I slowly scan through them when the song of John Mayer entitled All We Ever Do is Say Goodbye played on my winamp. Tears fell down my cheeks as if it was a flowing water on the faucet. I can’t control it! I am telling myself to stop as I might wake my sister who is sleeping. But I can’t. I just let it be. I cried for a while until the tears subsided. I really miss my son. Plus the husband was not home. Double the feeling of missing someone. =’(
Memories came back when I saw his pictures. A friend comforted me through Facebook chat and I am so thankful she was there for me. I think it was ok to cry once in a while. This is what makes me stronger as a person and the strength to face the reality of Huey being gone. As my other friend says this is a form of healing and it is ok. I am just thankful that I am this strong. I know Huey is with me all the time. Guiding and watching over me.
I miss you son! I love you so much!
November 25th, 2009 at 9:13 am
Diane! I can literally feel your sadness but you are definitely strong for realizing that these things make us stronger. And it’s okay to miss somebody we love so much from time to time and hope that they see us and miss us too! Just continue to be strong. Just here…