Huey’s mass offering for his death anniversary keeps me and my husband more closer. We will wake each other up at 5am to go to the 6am mass. We will whisper to each others ears during the mass for some chit chat that can’t wait until the mass is finished. hihihihi! I love those! We will eat breakfast together (sometimes he don’t eat breakfast at home). I just love how this event in our lives keeps the love in our hearts alive. Our love for Huey and our love for each other.
The first mass was very hard for me. I sometimes cry without hubby knowing at the church ( I quickly wipe my tears). I cry because I miss my son so much. I asked God why it has to happen to us. I pray that Huey will at least makes me feel that he was there which came true yesterday. I felt I was left alone again. I also felt envious to the woman in front of us who is pregnant and to the kid who is running around the church which is the same age to Huey. But thank God for my loving husband who made me feel that I was not alone, that he loves me so much and Huey is just there watching over us.
So let me tell you the story of my dream yesterday morning where Huey is telling me that he was just beside me. Yesterday after the mass and after eating breakfast I was really really sleepy. So I went back to bed and went to sleep. I saw Huey on my dreams. That he was alive and I was hugging and cuddling him. I also saw all of my family in my dreams and Jun of course. And then I woke up. I told hubby that I had a dream and Huey was on it. I realized that my dear son is telling me that he is just there watching over us. And now I am happy and comforted by that dream. Because I know that Huey is just there. I am super happy.
We will continue attending the mass until the 10th. I realized a lot of thing during this going to the mass everyday. And I am so thankful that I felt this. This is somewhat a retreat to me and my husband.
Thank God for this feeling and for the comfort you are giving me and my husband right now.
